Tag Archives: ROMANCE
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Musings Of A Masochist

20 Nov

Hurting,anxious,bitter and sad
I am unacknowledged
At times I doubt my very existence
I am unappreciated
Snubbed,rejected and shunned
And yet I hold on to the slippery rope

And yet I hope for a better tomorrow
And yet I know I am an option
Unappreciated, pathetic and confused
Like a dog eager for affection
I jump roll and pant for affection
Only too pleased to be noticed if only for a brief moment
And yet I stay in ambiguous welcome
Gutted, reeling and groaning
Wounded by careless words
Seared and scalded by indifference
Denied love,joy withheld
All this in the illusion of being needed
Battered brutalized and betrayed
And like a well-trained dog I wait for the release command
For I will not liberate myself voluntarily
Like a demonic dog I slobber and howl into the night that is my love life.
Desperate, needing and longing….

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LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE

26 Nov

A LIE, NO MATTER HOW BENIGN, SNOW WHITE OR BRAVE IT IS GIVES AWAY A GLIMPSE OF OUR VULNERABILITY. ONLY THE DEATH DEFYINGLY BRAVE HAVE NEVER TOLD A LIE. THE RIDICULOUS LIES AND OTHER RELATED NONSENSE WE TELL TO CHILDREN HIGHLIGHTS OUR INABILITY TO COMMUNICATE EFFECTIVELY WITH CHILDREN…SO WE MAKE UP ALL SORTS OF LUDICROUS TALES IN OUR ATTEMPT TO GIVE MEANING TO THE WORLD.
LYING IS ALSO A DEFENSE MECHANISM AND THOSE WHO COWER AWAY FROM THE TRUTH AND ADOPT A DEFENSIVE STANCE ARE VULNERABLE.
BEING LIED TO IS EMPOWERING ALBEIT ANNOYING. FOR THAT ONE SPLIT SECOND A LIE IS UTTERED THE PERSON LIED TO, OFTEN UNBEKNOWN TO HIM/HER WIELDS A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF POWER….SOMEBODY IS ACTUALLY DEFENDING THEMSELVES AGAINST YOU.

I’M OFTEN VULNERABLE MANY TIMES THROUGHOUT THE DAY AND A LIE(NO SUCH THING AS A WHITE LIE…RACIST TENDENCIES IF YOU ASK ME), LIKE A SILENT FART COMES OUT QUITE NATURALLY. YOU DO TOO.

CHEATING IN CONVENTIONAL ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS IS ANATHEMA. THE OFFENDED PARTY GOES TO GREAT LENGTHS AT LISTING THE LITANY OF BETRAYALS BLA BLA FISHPASTE. SO WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER YOUR PARTNER DO IN MOMENTS OF JEZEBEL-LIKE ENCOUNTERS? CONSULT YOU? SERIOUSLY? MY TAKE IS BE GRATEFUL WHATEVER SHANANIGANS TOOK PLACE DID SO BEHIND YOUR BACK, IN FACT BE PROUD, IN SOME TWISTED WAY YOU STILL MATTER TO THE CHEATER.
WALKING AWAY IS AN OPTION AND YOU’LL PROBABLY BE BETTER FOR IT. ANOTHER OPTION IS STAYING AND SHUTTING THE FUCK UP.